it's my life

i was a bit nervous today ‘cause i had to meet with the administrator of al-diwan. he found out i had decided to reject the school’s curriculum and study my own thing. al-diwan follows the kitaab asaasi (meaning fundamental book) curriculum along with a book for improving oral communication written by the administrator. anyway, there are like 15+ levels but levels 0-10 are the official levels with standards and exams. after level 10, it’s kinda free for all and the levels get kinda blurry. so i completed level 7 with kitaab asaasi and couldn’t take anymore. (i finished the 1st book and was almost done with the 2nd). the lessons were so boring and the vocabulary was about random stuff. i totally lost motivation. why should i waste my time learning the parts of a satellite in arabic when i don’t even know them in english!? ustadha reham doesn’t like the 2nd kitaab asaasi either so she teaches her students what she thinks is important. all her students end up speaking and knowing the grammar really well. so with her, i’m reading little booklets on the life of the prophet (s) and learning lots of grammar and speaking. plus, later we’ll do some tafseer and poetry. she also started assigning me homework in which i have to find examples in the quran and deconstruct the verses using the grammar i learned. now that’s the kinda stuff i wanna do.

so anyway, i was scared about what mudir islam (the administrator) was going to say to me. what if he told me i had to finish the 2nd kitaab asaasi? i couldn’t do that. i’d rather swim in the nile river than do that (the nile river is extremely polluted...plus...umm...i can’t swim). i was prepared to throw a tantrum and threaten to leave al-diwan but after 30 minutes of discussion with him, he ended up saying i could do whatever i wanted! phew! alhamdulillah.

in other news, i burned my tongue from the soup i made yesterday. actually, i think it’s swollen. not only can i not taste my food, but it’s painful to eat. plus, it hurts when i speak.